Like a lifesaver in a stormy sea.

God works in mysterious ways, in ways that shatter the human pride, in ways that confuse and frustrate our minds, in ways that we cannot understand.

I am in the thick of a trial, a very painful and messy trial. My family is not doing well and my parents' lack of God is making it all the more painful. My grandma is in the thick of her own pain.

I have been brought to stormy waters and I can not tread water. I can not rely on my own strength to save myself and hope to survive. And like a life saver in this wild and painful time, I cling to the grace of God and His gospel, that Jesus Christ was sent from God to die for the sins of men like you and I who did not deserve it, so that we may no longer die in our sins and be separated from God but live with Him forever.

Though I prepare for what I think will be one of the defining moments of mine and my family's lives, and I see there is possibly more pain ahead, I will forever trust in Him. Though the path that God has lead me through feels all the more painful, He will forever be the lamp unto my feet.

I need prayer.